December 5 – Let Go.

December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?
(Author: Alice Bradley)

This seems like it should be about my Grandpa who passed away pretty unexpectedly this year, but the truth is, I haven't let him go. I'm not there yet.

I let go of a part of myself this year in a lot of ways. I let go of some of my confidence in my ability to do the work I do. I let go of this idea that I was a good person because I paid my bills on time (because let's face it, I can't anymore... yes, I wish I had planned better, but no, I never thought life would kick me down quite the way it did this year either, so I'm not sure how much planning would've helped). At the beginning of the year, I let go of a LOT of me, the "old" me, the me that had friends and was relatively successful and/or content in life, but more recently, I've let go of that nasty, downward thinking self and I'm working on letting pieces of that "old" me back in. Full circle, or semi circle, for now, I guess?